Life is a Journey

Setelah tinggal menghitung hari 1 bulan lagi di Aceh, jadi mengingat-ingat banyak kenangan ternyata di sini… Salah satunya adalah ketika Seamus hampir tenggelam di pantai deket airport nagan raya. Waktu itu kebetulan ada acara farewell nya staff WHO, jadi mereka bikin bbq di pantai dan mengundang kita. Padahal ga diundang pun kita juga mau ke pantai. Trus, singkat cerita, Seamus kebawa ombak dan diselamatkan oleh 2 orang. Pokoknya syukur banget deh karena dia beneran hampir mati. Waktu kita lagi di sekeliling Seamus, tiba-tiba datang seorang gadis cantik, lari dari pinggir pantai dan dia cuma pakai bikini (di aceh gitu lho!) Serasa film Baywatch deh hehe trus dia mendorong kita ke samping trus berlutut di samping Seamus… “Are you okay? I am a nurse”… cie… gue (yang kebetulan dokter), Dr. Norman (dokternya WHO gitu lho!) dan Maggie (yang registered nurse) jadi senyum-senyum…Lha, jadi 2 dokter dan 1 perawat belum cukup ya? Seamus aja yang kecapean gitu ikutan senyum-senyum hehe lumayan buat hiburan

Last night, I spent about two hours talked with one of my house’s mate. She is also about to leave. She said “hey girl, for your age, you are thinking too much. Just do what you want to do. This is your life. You are lucky you have many choices, because many people don’t. Just choose one and do it”

Yes, I am thinking too much. I have many choices and they made me confused. Should I stay or should I leave? I just want to help the children but this system made my life complicated. I want to fly, but in the same time I feel guilty because I want to do many things to this un-lucky community. But she is right. This is about my life. As a humanitarian worker, you know very well that the first rule is: before you taking care of others, you have to taking care of your self. There is no point you help people but you also need help. The minimum requirements are: staying alive, healthy and happy. If you don’t feel that anymore, please re-consider your choice.

My mission in life is to help vulnerable, marginalized, poor -you name it- children. I don’t have to stay here to do that. I can do it anywhere in the world, am I right?

Finally I made decision to leave. Leave the comfort zone; enter the danger zone, again!

Life is nothing but exciting.